Feliz Dia de Madres

Today is Mother's Day in Nicaragua. I actually received a text message from the telecommunications carrier that said "Feliz Dia de Madres"!! I didn't get out much today - we stayed at the house for most the day but we went out to dinner and our cab driver told me how he cooked breakfast for his wife and made her a cake. He continued to tell me how in Nicaragua - Mother's Day is a BIG deal but Father's Day...not so big. I told him that it is really the same in the states.

I know that this day is a marketing dream - so many cards and gifts purchased for Mom's, Grandma's, Sister's and wives. But it is a day I always look forward to - My husband and children take very good care of me on my special day - My Mother's Day this year was rushed - we celebrated early because I was in Nicaragua for the actual day - and albeit, it was wonderful to hang out with my family and receive cards and lots of love....it wasn't the same. I feel the day more today because it is celebrated here and it has made me very homesick. Where is my husband and my first born???

This is my first Mother's Day without my Grandma and I miss her so much. She had a chance to meet our Martita and even though she thought she was a boy at first (don't judge her - she was 92!!!) she warmed up to our girl and had a twinkle in her eye when she watched her. I think my Grandma is laughing at all my experiences now and thinking I'm a little on the crazy side - I think she always thought that about me!! I also think she was right!!

I had my first Mother's Day with Martita - which is so awesome. I think about her future - I know she will grow up with love and support of her family but now she has so many opportunities. She can truly be whatever she chooses to be.... I wonder if she will like Math - be a Daddy's girl - go to college. Will she come back to Nicaragua and have an impact on her country? Will she move far away from me - as I did to my own Mother? O.K. I'm already trying to make her feel guilty and she doesn't even speak English yet!!!

Most of all I wonder how can I give her what she needs to feel totally loved and a part of our family. Lucie has said a couple of times that she wishes she was adopted. She sees the love these families have for these children and she wants some of it!! But it won't always be this easy - Martita will have struggles and challenges and I pray that both Tim, the girls and I can give her what she needs to become the woman God intended for her to be.

I guess these are the thoughts all Mom's have about their children - I have such a beautiful family and am so blessed - Feliz Dia de Madres' all my dear loved ones - I hope your day was as special as was mine!!!