Today was another crazy day - O.K., when are my days suppose to be slow and boring?!?!? Not happening to us yet!! We had an appointment at 8:30 AM today at Mi Familia with the boss - Arle. Arle is a very nice man who wants to help us in the process with adoption - he really has made a difference as to how often the consejo meets and how the process works - He was our last chance to state our case and get into the May consejo - which is happening tomorrow.
Well, if caffeine isn't enough to get you going in the morning, I suggest moving to Nicaragua!! For a slow-pace relaxed 3rd world country - this place can be extremely stressful. My taxi driver, for whatever reason, thought he would pick me up at 8:30 AM instead of the 7:30 AM time we had agreed upon the night before. So the girls and I waited for about 20 minutes before I called him and asked "Donde esta" Where are you?!?!?! Many apologies and 20 minutes later - he showed up!! Then he proceeded to drive faster than anyone I know (including myself) down these roads that are beat up, have no lanes, where people and livestock are constantly crossing the street - it was like driving in a video game!! Turn left quickly to avoid the cow in the road - watch out for the pot hole - speed around the car that's broken down!! The girls kept saying "whoa" and I did my famous "uuuggghhhhhh" a few times - Lord, no more caffeine for me!! And by the way, why didn't I take another pill this morning?!?!?
We arrived 10 minutes late - which is completely acceptable here in Nicaragua - 30 minutes late is acceptable (I'm not kidding) - went directly into our meeting with Arle where I stated our case the best way I knew how - Tim gave me some good suggestions and I gave him the best pitch I could - however, I don't think we closed the deal. The agenda has been set and we are not on it!! I held it together until I got out the door and then I started to cry - Martita started to rub my leg and kept looking at me....Lucie paid absolutely no attention to me (she is used to her Mother crying).
Well, what does this mean? It means we wait until the consejo meets in June to give us an official court date - we have another month to wait and worry about when and if the consejo meets in June. So I made a decision today - my husband and I have done everything we can to make this happen and there is nothing more we can do...so I give up.....Jesus take the wheel!! Seriously, it is all in God's hands and I feel much better letting him drive than myself or my cab driver!!
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ReplyDeletehahahaha....waaaa...hahaha...waaa.That's me while reading your entry today.
ReplyDeleteOMGoodnes...your killing me Lesa!!! I swear it's so awesome to read your blog not only do I get to hear about your journey but I get my laughs and cries for the day too and we both know I can cry, we were always the first ones crying at small group! Alisson always looks over at me while I'm watching, Oprah, News or one of my favorite shows because if it's a happy story I cry if it's a sad story I cry...I always cry. So I can relate to what you said about Lucy. It's so sad Alfred and Alisson don't pay attention to my tears unless there's been a death or severe illness within our family or close friends. I get your girlfriend, I get you;) Oh and I sooo get what you were saying about your cab driver, The roads on the countryside are exactly the same in Costa Rica. Man chica one time on our way to the market from our hotel my uncle was driving so fast I almost sharted my pants! BTW just incase...sharted, definition - when you fart so hard that a little piece of shit comes out! Okay...laughing uncontrollably right now!!!
No seriously now, one thing is for sure, you're right, let go and let God! Just go with the flow and ask God for peace in those moments of desperation. I know it's easy for me to say, I'm not there walking in your shoes right now and I can't imagine being able to withstand what you are going through. I truly admire you, you are so strong and so brave! I do know a bit about letting God drive though. I have had, no, I mean I still have those moments in my life where I just want to control and do all I can to make a certain situation happen, run smoother or faster. It's only after I've struggled with myself, I'm at my wit's end and broken down that I finally say, "okay God, help me I can't do it anymore". I lay my burden unto his feet, finally surrender and allow his precious peace to fill my heart that a change begins and what I had desired begins to happen if it is his will and if it's not then I begin to have peace and patience.
Wish I was there to give you a big hug, I may not be there in body but my heart is with you always! Now chin up enjoy Nicaragua eat some bugs have a glass of wine, y lla!
Love you
xoxox
SHART....LOL...VERY GOOD!!!!
ReplyDeleteO.K. Ivania - you are killing me!!! Sharted - never heard of it before and now will never forget it - I love you and so appreciate your friendship and support - how I miss you!! I know you are here with me in spirit and your comments show me that I am not alone in this - love you sweetie - thanks again!!
ReplyDeleteHi Lesa,
ReplyDeleteWe were out of town, but I am now caught up on your journey to date. Like others I have smiled, laughed, and teared up when reading your blog. You have your good days and those that are more challenging, and God is with you through them all. Ivania is so right about handing your challenges over to God, knowing that He will take care of matters at the right time. He must have something wonderful planned for you between now and the June meeting!
Thank you for sharing your thoughts and emotions with us through your journey. I know it is therapeutic for you, but also for me. Your experiences and words help me to slow down, reflect, and appreciate what I have.
God Bless,
Donna
P.S. On a less serious note, I have two thoughts--1) You should consider writing a book at the end of this chapter of your life. You are a regular Erma Bombeck. If you don't know who she is, ask Tim! :D 2) I have to meet Ivania--"sharting"--too funny!