What's the plan?

I always have considered myself a planner....I thrive on having a full schedule - one that has some room for relaxation but always a plan. I LOVE my phone with it's calender and that makes it easy for me to PLAN! I know who I'm meeting, where, when and why - isn't that the way life is suppose to be?

How is it possible to function in a place with no plan - no phone with a calender - no plan for next week - no idea of when, what, who and why?

I am living that life now - right now, I have plans for next Thursday - I'm going to the beach with other adoptive families and then saying goodbye to the Rodriguez's. Tomorrow, I am suppose to be doing something with Maria Jose (director of the orphanage) but have no idea what or when or where. She was suppose to call me but hasn't. There is no plan!! I don't know when I will be leaving this place - when my husband will be with me - or when I will look back on all this and laugh. There is no plan!!

I planned on doing laundry today - only because the garbage bag that has all the dirty clothes in it is completely stinky and almost full - so when I had time today - which was about 5:00 this evening - I started the process. I have to clean everything in the outdoor laundry room - first I soak the clothes in the sink with detergent to hopefully get the smell out - then I scrub them on the built-in scrub board - then rinse - then ring out and finally hang them to dry. My little helpers are more for decorative charm then for helping but I love having them. It took us about an hour - I then thought - well, it's time for dinner - so I made that on our gas stove and we went upstairs to relax.

As soon as we sat down to watch Transformers, I heard a loud noise - I asked Lucie "is that rain?" She said "I think so Momma" - I ran downstairs and out the door to the laundry room and it was pouring!!! I quickly grabbed all the clothes off the line - was handing them to Martita (Lucie was still upstairs watching Transformers - hello) and got completely soaked - I rang the clothes out again in the kitchen sink and started to hang them to dry in different spots in the house....the dining room chairs - the railing of the stairs and any knob I could find.

Then my friend Carlos is at my door asking to borrow a bottle opener (don't judge him!!!) and Lucie yells down that Daddy is trying to Skype - she answers the Skype but can't turn off the movie - CHAOS!!!

I talk to Scarlett and Tim and then put the girls to bed and then the electricity goes out!! I brought with me ONE small flashlight and some candles. I "feel" my way downstairs to find the flashlight and the candles and come back upstairs to find both girls out of bed and completely freaked out - when the electricity goes out - that of course means the wall unit air conditioner units stop working - so about 5 minutes after the lights went out - we were all hot, uncomfortable and a little cranky. I put some candles on the floor next to the girls' room, so they would go back to sleep and waited patiently for the lights and fans to come back on. Why is it so scary when it's dark? I guess I will never stop feeling that fear - but I continued on my lap-top and within an hour.....we were back in business.

I am so transitioning into a person I don't even know....I smiled when I knew my husband was on the computer and the movie was still going.....I was patiently waiting for the electricity to come back on - I laughed at myself and thought - what will happen to us tomorrow?

I may not be the successful planner I have been all my life but I am learning....learning to go with the flow, learning that nature doesn't cooperate often and that whatever my plan is, very well may NOT be the actual plan!!