Journey of Change

As slow as change seems to take....it is always so sudden.

I just heard today that a very dear friend of mine - JJ got in a horrific motorcycle accident. Thank God he will be fine - but literally one moment he is riding his cousins' new motorcycle and the next, skidding across pavement and doing serious damage to his body. An instant.

I feel that way about our adoption - so much work - so many tears - frustrations. The amount of paperwork and broken promises and commitments.....we continue to do what we have to but it is painful and exhausting. Then we get the call - our adoption has been approved and we need to come to Nicaragua... An instant.

I hear so often that people don't like change - but all we ever hear from others, and ourselves, is how we will change. I'm going to get in shape this summer - I'm going to finish that course in Spanish - I'm going to stop all my bad habits (don't want to be too descriptive on my bad habits....may shock a few people)- and on and on.... We see ourselves as someone different than who we are today - someone thinner, smarter, prettier.....

I too, fall into this trap. My goals for going to Nicaragua were to become a better Mom, lose weight, speak fluent Spanish.....all these changes!!

My very dear friend, Sue Jones, gave me a bracelet before I left on this trip - on one side it reads "Life is a Journey" and on the flip side it reads "Not a Destination" - I have heard this saying many times and thought that I understood it's meaning...but I think now in my life, I am starting to truly understand what it means to me.

Change is something that happens weather we want it to or not. I went on my first Missions' trip, met Martita and my life was changed. In an instant. Through this adoption process and the struggle, I have met incredible people who share this experience with me. I have seen the love and support from my family and friends. I have learned to be patient and more understanding. I have learned that God has a plan for me and all I have to do, is follow it!!

My journey of change has been amazing....of course there are difficulties and challenges but I am here now and I am experiencing a beautiful place and beautiful people. I am now the official Mom of our sweet Martita - and I am going to do my best to enjoy each day of this journey of change!!

Love and Blessings!! lesa