Good, Bad and Ugly

I hope that I didn't freak anyone out with my last bold blog!! Although we have and continue to have some great times here in Nicaragua, there is always an underlining stress and frustration that I have while I'm here. I'm sorry to have been so down last night - I try so hard to be strong but when I do write how I feel, honestly, it helps me work through my feelings. Another reason I am blogging this entire experience is to have an account for our Martita when she gets older - I want her to know the good, the bad and the ugly!!

The good - my beautiful girls (sometimes there are also the bad and the ugly!!!), my supportive husband, the people of Nicaragua, the other adoptive families, the children at the orphanage and all the new experiences.

The bad - my husband is not with me, the bugs, the bugs, the bugs, no air conditioning, no dish washer, no hot water, no washing machine, no dryer (the list goes on and on)

The ugly - the bugs, the heat, the adoption process and my mood from time to time.

So please be patient with me if from time to time - I let off some steam. I have come back from my mini-breakdown and with the support of my husband and friends, will make these next few weeks as positive as I can!!

I have one quick story to tell you all before I go - when we got home from the beach today there was an extremely large butterfly (again, I could be completely wrong as this could be some other type of creature) in our kitchen. It was black and scary looking. It was flying about trying to get out of the house. It settled on the kitchen window, where it stayed for quite some time - after dinner, I have to shut that window so I can minimize the bug situation. All the girls were in the kitchen helping me clean up and I knew I had to close the window and this would cause havoc. I closed the window, the butterfly demon started to fly around and I encouraged Scarlett to pick it up by it's wings and through it outside. She looked at me like I had 6 heads!!!

Then it hit me....Martita our bug killer!! I called her over and explained to her what I wanted - she went after the demon and grabbed it's wing....it flew out of her hand...she tried again and again...we were all encouraging her "you can do it Martita...get um" - finally, she grabbed it and squeezed it hard and went to throw it out the door - as soon as she did, the little bugger flew right back in!! Lucie gave a blood-curling scream, as did her older sister and Martita started jumping up and down (I'm sure wondering...what are all these crazy gringo's doing??!!?) I must admit that I was completely freaked-out myself at this point!!

With all the confusion, we lost the creature in the house - I finally spotted it on the dining room chair and pointed it out to my youngest daughter and said "Get um"!!! This time when she stepped out of the house, with the demon in hand, I closed the door to ensure it could not fly back in - however, my Martita was out there as well!!! So we brought her back in and the demon was out!!! Kudos to my Martita the bug killer!!!

Here's to a great rest of the weekend - to a light heart - to a quick smile and to focus on the good - not the bad and not the ugly!!